I have a confession to make.  I’ve been a bit complacent about my diet over the last few weeks.  The cold weather has been an excuse for ‘just a bit more’ and because it’s ‘home made and vegan’ portion control really isn’t an issue.  Don’t vegetables have close to zero calories anyway?

My clothes are feeling tight and I’m feeling unfit.  It’s all a bit disappointing because I thought keeping up with my exercise would compensate for all that extra food.  It might have done in the past but clearly not anymore.

At the same time, beating myself up and wishing things were different isn’t going to change anything either.  Small changes which will eventually become habits over time.  Those and non food related goals to celebrate my milestones.  I’m planning on making the milestones unrelated to a number on the scales.  Sticking to a small goal for a fortnight is what I’m thinking of instead.

Interestingly, it’s not been the occasional treat days that have been my undoing but rather the daily almost mindless extras I’ve been adding without much thought or need.  Being confronted with a few extra kilos has made me think hard about the small things I can change each day in the way I eat.

Which brings me to what my ideal meal is at the moment.  It’s every meal from now on.  Because I’m going to be more mindful about how much food it really takes to make me pleasantly full.  I can’t do fad diets and I can’t skip meals.  I like my little treats, I can’t really live without an alternate day cafe coffee.

But I can make small changes to get back on track.  And stay there.